sjsprWriting

I like change,

I like to  experience new things,

explore beyond my horizons,

open my mind to different possibilities.

I like the thrill of new feelings, emotions, experiences,

discovering new places, ways of life, atmospheres. 

I love to travel.

For me, life is about risky and venturous situations.

Life changing situations.

I cannot be staid, static,

used to one life, one place, one way of doing things.

Maybe this is why I'm so unsure about what I want to dedicate my life to.

I've always known what I want, what I love, what I am passionate for.

But for some reason,

I don't want to be stuck doing the same thing in the same place for the rest of my life.

sure, I wouldn't mind spending 6 years researching a supernova

Honestly, I'd wake up every day looking forward to my "work"

but I would loathe having to spend 50 years in the

same country, same place, same lab,

same kind of lab coat,

same currency, same commute, same people.

mostly because I want to explore.

I'm curious about what's out there.

I want to see it all

Live it all.

well, I know it won't be possible for me to see or live it all,

but if I try,

maybe I'll be able to have seen or lived enough.

Maybe it's because I have not lived enough to know the real meaning of living,

maybe it's because I do not have enough experience to know if loving something to a certain extent,

can grab you

and make your life seem seamless.

maybe I just need more experience,

maybe I just need to think more.

maybe it's that I think I know what I want,

but I really don't.

Maybe it's called being reckless,

or maybe it's called being open minded.

Maybe it's just who I am,

or maybe it's because I'm scared.

scared of living the same life.

Maybe it's just that I don't want to be stuck

doing the same thing

over,

and over,

and over,

again.