sjsprWriting

Her desire is to temporarily dissapear. She does not want to commit to anything fully, because if she did she might regret it. It scares her to think that what she had before was the best it will ever get for her, therefore, committing to something new scares her because of the fact that it could be either the best or the worst decision of her life.

This overwhelms her deeply. 

Being a ghost does not sound like the ultimate worst thing she could end up being. She fears physical suffering more than anything else in the world, and does not fear her mind because its very stable. This is one of her strengths. 

When things aren't going so well, her choice of recovery is to remain home watching T.V. without any socialization or communication with the outside world. Rather than spending her time facing fears, worries, or problems, she hides away at first to contemplate every angle of the situation, she stalls as much as she can, and does anything to give her mind time to think. She is deeply crude and straight to the point without sugar coating it. She finds a rush when she hears other people's problems, because it distracts her from her own. 

She is me