sjsprWriting

You realize after hours of staring at a wall or computer; clearly doing nothing, you snap. "Damn.", you say, " We all do the same freaking thing." Not literally I mean, but if you think about it, everyone does their own proper routines, sure they are different, but the act of doing routines are the same. We all wake up, eat, go to work, eat, have some fun, eat, watch tv, eat, surf the internet, eat, drink, party, etc. Notice how many times I wrote "Eat"? Yeah I guess I like eating too or we all tend to eat many times regardless of our diets we use to stay skinny. When you finally get up from bed, the couch, the floor, or the chair, you jump up and mentally scream "I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING, THIS IS SO BORING", eventually you start stepping around the room you're in and you draw a mental blank. We all look out the window for some inspiration. Perhaps nature, how the birds fly, the sky, how people walk along the streets, etc. You just think "Everything seems to fit, where are they going, why?, What are my friends doing? or What am I doing?" Eventually you go to the kitchen and grab a snack or drink and sit back down. Once again, you're back on this position you started with looking at nothing and the cycle starts again. Maybe it happens a few more times and you don't seem to notice the freaking amount of time you wasted doing it. Then you get all psychological and question everything and draw statements that I'm sure we all thought of once. "Why am I here?" We all go to school, graduate, pay shit ton of money to survive, get a job, then die." So what's the point? Well the point is, you want to get the finer things in life. You want to do what you can't do. I mean eventually you will forget about it as you probably forgot how there were so many things you already done that many others are just questioning about you. You seem to get to this selfish state and only care about things in the short term. Why are us humans like this? I guess we just want everything now but life isn't that easy. Anyways we live pretty short lives yet really long ones too. We just dont want to waste all that youthful time doing nothing because by the time we get to the pivotal age of incapablity we would probably get all depressed. But no, we want to travel, make friends, find love, make money, make a family. That's enjoyable and when you look back you can think "I finally did it." There goes again with the selfishness. I think I got a little bit sidetrack. The point is, we do think what we want, its so amazing and incredible. Yet we sit and do nothing when there probably things at the moment ur friend is doing behind your back. Then you go a little bit unstable and just wonder... Just wonder... Loud music pumping, suddenly your'e jumping, yeah you just need to move but you're in your room and I don't know, people are at a party or something so you throw a mini party bash in your room. But then you're back where you are from the beggining, restarting the cycle after a crazy conversion you had with yourself or perhaps another friend thats going through the same situation except both of you are not able to meet each other to do something or just too lazy to even put effort to meet. Then you stare at the space again wanting to do something in life and not think of the negative stuff. Too much time alone or drawing blanks and making these connections of a monotonous life we all have just makes you want to give up. I guess we all need to find a drive for something because we all need the answer to our question. "Whats the meaning of life? Who am I and what the hell am I going to do about it? Then you realize after a long day again and say "I JUST WANT TO SLEEP AND LIE DOWN" Too bad we got "work to do" Now back at the position in the beginning, after the I don't know 157th cycle or 5 hours of unproductive intervals, you just do something, regardless how miniscle it is. And well, in my case, I typed.