sjsprWriting

Why can't I go to sleep? Seriously!? Twenty minutes of my life have been spent staring at the white blank ceiling and silence has still not been able to be achieved. Silence. Why can't my head be silent? Thoughts keep bombarding me with anxiety and pressure. Thoughts I shouldn't be thinking about. Thoughts that are so unimportant and make absolutely no sense. Why did I all of a sudden imagine getting robbed at my own house? Why do I just add to my paranoia? My dog doesn't stop barking. He's inside. Is there a person there? Nah. At 3:30am. Who would want to be awake at this time? Probably our cat was disturbing him. We always seem to just let her roam around as if she were some spirit animal watching over the house. Why am I still thinking? CONCENTRATE! I need sleep, pronto! Two hours asleep is not enough for a person that hasn't slept in three days. Wow. Has it been three days? I lost count. Math is definitely not my fortay. I need to stop thinking. I need silence. Like the silence in a no noise chamber. Like the silence in a dark, desolate room. Oh how I love silence but it never seems to be achievable. Maybe if I close my eyes. My gosh!!! What in the world is that noise? That humming is going to get annoying really quick, like REALLLY quick. Ugh! "SHUT UP!"

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(boom)

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Silence.