sjsprWriting

The internet stirs up a lot of anxiety within me and yet I spend most of my time on it? When I tweet someone or send someone a message online I start to worry if they dont respond within a minute. Do they hate me? Did I say something wrong? Am I an awful person?? Obviously not. Whoever I messaged is probably eating or doing homework or pooping or whatever like any other person. There are so many cool people online. I just wanna be friends with them but I feel so dumb whenever I try to reply to their tweet or something. There are even people ive met IN REAL LIFE that I cant talk to online?? It sucks because I really want our friendship to evolve into something nice but I cant work up the courage to type “hey whats up?”. I also tend to destroy the confidence I have in my own art when im online. Whenever I look at other artist’s work I cant help but compare mine to theirs. This usually results in me lying on the floor in a puddle of my own tears and sweat. Its not right for me to compare what I do with what someone with a ton of experience does. Art is highly subjective and it doesn't all have to be realistic or proportionate. Yet I am constantly forgetting this. I launch myself into a whirlwind of negative feelings.