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I do not want to sound like an enemy or scrutinize the friends and teamates I have played with for the last few years. But was this the best of our capabilities? Was this the freaking performance we wanted to present? Screw what you think about the people who went, your girlfriend, your teachers, your family, your friends, think for yourself. What on Earth did we do today? For our last game against a team that does not deserve the gold position, wait scratch that I guess they do deserve it more than us. We gave up, that's what I saw. But we can't do anything about it any more. Past is past.

I could probably name several moments in which we had high hopes of winning and playing as a team. We started so well in the first half. Control, kicks, opportunities, and most importantly team work and communication. I would say we were very secure and were well of at this point. But when the Second half came, what were you all thinking? Oh I need to shoot and score for myself cause it is the last game? Where was the team there? All I saw in the end was: screaming at each other, heads down, blaming, and colorless faces in which we had already given up. You know what. Sure, defense line was to blame for the two goals that came in. First goal they made I have to give credit to. They were two guys and they communicated well enough to pass and score. Second Goal was a terrible mistake on our defensive line, one guy just dribbled passed us and scored. He read us and took advantage. But you know what I noticed too? Our captain. He gave up after the first goal. He had several chances of scoring. Hits the post with a free kick. A header whcih was going in but because of some person who wants to be selfish and take the goal stood in the way didnt let it in. He was not the only one who gave up.Think about it for yourself. But what I don't understand is why our captain didnt take his role in asking the coach for changes and instead kept quiet and slow down. That will bother me for a while. 

Think about it. I think the only people who truly wanted to win the game were the underclassmen and I need to give them a pat on the back. They played their hearts out, didnt stop and kept going, and to be honest, played the best. They will be our legacy. The ones who recongnized our mistakes and you know what? Will come to be champions next year. They will triumph what we could not because of our mentality. I also need to give a hand to the bench or substitute because many of them, if not all, deserved to play today. It was our last game and regardless of how much we needed to win, they deserved time in to play because I know, changing some players can really change the ball game to our favor. Every team knows how our starters play, the same they have all the time, its predictable, and we just had to continue it? No one changes and I have to blame myself too. We are a team.

Personally, I have no idea how we got this far but we did. But it was destined from the start, we were going to lose at this rate. I tried to not believe in the reality, to think we had hope of actually winning. The hope that we learned and stopped our foolish ways from the past, but we didnt. In the end, we lost. I just hope our underclassmen can rise up and kick ass because I know they will be an actual team.