sjsprWriting

You used to whisper sweet nothings into my ear

Trusting I wouldn't notice how you practiced them in the mirror

Hoping they would pierce the bark I so skillfully grew around my delicate chest

You used to call me the love of your life

And I guess your life was cut short

For that is the only explanation I can fathom right now

To explain your absence

I gave every part of me to you

But you, you gave me what you could bear to let out of your gluttonous grasp

Your intimacy was guarded so I battled with your armored footmen every day

You never loved me like I thought you would

Almost as if your handprints on my skin would melt into scars

Almost as if any caress would render me filthy

If you believed that laying your fingertips on me would make me any less pure

I challenge you to take a look at your hands

I am not to blame

In some way, I guess you were right

For the tip of my tongue is tainted with your lust

And if anyone were ever to kiss my lips again, all they would taste is your name

And if you intended to walk out of this unscathed

I am here to burn golden letters into your arms

For I am not easily forgotten

I am not easily left behind

Take a part of me if you absolutely must

And I will take with me the origin of your everything

And I will take with me your baby steps

Someday we will call it even

And maybe I am digging too deep into certain sadness

But you have sucked every ounce of poetry out of my lungs

Thinking I'd be left silent

Still, I hold a burden to my pen

A dalliance with my notebook that you'd never understand

Your excuse was always the same, romance was never your "thing"

My thoughts cannot move an inch without bumping into a piece of us

And now my body cuts into itself with daggered looks

Because I have poured all of my love into you

And I have left none at all for myself