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(This is how I love you, dark and loud, a threat hanging over the back of your head. This is how I want you, quiet and small, cute and obedient. Scared of me even when I'm not there. This is how I enjoy you the most.)

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(This is how I love you, you want to scream, grabbing her shoulders and shaking her with frustration. Why can't you understand that?! What's so difficult to comprehend?! You'll shove her down to the floor just to show her, forcing your love's way in so she can feel all of it, every little bit. I love you so much, you want to wrap your love around her neck till she can't breathe anymore from the fierceness of it, and you do just that. The words she chokes out in response make you want to weep, because they're so full of your love, interlaced so perfectly, and because finally, now you understand how I love you, and you take her crumpled figure into your arms. Cradle her, and whimper in response to every sob she lets out.

I'm sorryI'm sorryI'm sorry, please don't cry, don't cry, no, dont, stop

i love youiloveyou Im sorry please dont this is how i love you, i love you so much, i swear, you just couldnt understand, this is how i love you its the onlyway i know how)